i feel love and happiness and independence.  it has been awhile.  wonderful!

Amazing! I feel happy.

San Diego. A soul less town with gorgeous sunsets

Camping tomorrow. Looking forward to nature.

Gosh this funeral is bringing up a large amount of resentment. And I ended up crying to my dad. Just want to be there for him, and feel it came across as self-centered. Aye ya ya.

Margie Nell George, died at 10:03am on June 21st 2011.  She was 96.  She was loved and still is…. :)

i felt happy when i first saw her.  then leaving, i was emotional and felt such a surge of love for my cousin and aunt.  the drive to the airport was normal.  but now and on the flight, my heart hurts and my eyes are full of water.  damn. damn. damn.  

i pray her passage is tonight.  

Listening to the nurse bathe nanny. The record player is belting out- just keep me hanging on”… I want her to go,but my aunt won’t let her go. Nanny’s eyes opened. She is so sweet.

She is so little and soft. She doesn’t look like the nanny I know but her sounds are familiar. Here face is very pretty, almost no wrinkles. Her hands look so beautiful and elegant. I hear her breathing through my bedroom wall. I don’t know what to say to her besides telling her I am here and she looks pretty. It is time for her to die you cam tell. What is she holding on for I wonder? I hope she is fearless and knows we are ready to say goodbye. I will miss her. This house just resonates with happy memories and love. I hope the rain clears so I can go to visit the cemetery. I know she will want flowers so I should get some .